Two months later !

Ok....so where have 2 months gone ? I am not sure, but I do know what I have done in those 8 weeks...not much ! I have lost a total of 21 pounds, but almost all of it was before the last post. I got sidetracked !
I. Got. Sidetracked. And I can't afford that. I just don't have the luxury of time here, folks. I feel bad. I am tired. I hate, I HATE the way I look.
My weight loss program on my iPhone tells me that at 2 pounds loss a week, I'll be at a proper weight on April 28th, 2011 . 2011 !! I don't expect to drop this weight fast...know it's not even good to do so, but 18 months seems like a lifetime when you hurt. So whose fault is that ? I think we all know the answer to that little question, don't we.
And another thing...I knew, KNEW that writing this blog would hold me accountable and help me. In fact, I really believe that it will be the key to my success. But have I come back here and written regularly ? No. Now why is that ? I hate to type . Yes, I do. But still. Why do I let all the things I hate to do keep me from becoming the person that I need to be ?
So, I am back. I am re-committed. I will do this. With the help of God, I will do this. Slow going ? Maybe. But I cannot afford to quit. I have a life to live.