I'LL DO BETTER TOMORROW

As in, I know I'm eating stuff that will make me feel lousy, but I'LL DO BETTER TOMORROW.... I know I'm skipping meals and that doesn't help my food plan, but I'LL DO BETTER TOMORROW.... I didn't take the time to exercise at all today, but I'LL DO BETTER TOMORROW.

Today is TOMORROW. It really is.

I've even been planning on blogging for a month now. Everything I've ever read on making changes in yourself starts with writing. Making lists, affirmations, goals. It's all about seeing it in black and white. Accountability to something or someone can be the make or break of anything.

So when I decided about a month ago to make today my tomorrow by getting with a nutritionist and beginning this, I knew right away that journaling would be the key. I knew it. I still know it. But did I do it then ? Nope, nada, not on your sweet Hershey bar. Of course, there's a learning curve with blogs ( like all of 9 minutes ), but hey... I'm certainly up to curvy, right ? I just let any and every little thing keep telling me " you can start ( say it with me now )
TOMORROW !" I told myself I needed to get a few weeks under my belt ( like I would even wear a belt...ha ) and THEN I would blog about my amazing success. Well, it's 4 weeks later. I've lost 9.75 pounds and while not amazing, it's more than I'd lost in the previous 4 weeks.

So why have I been waiting ? I had set the magic date of September 1st to start. You know, the moon has to be in the seventh house, I need a big block of unscheduled time, my chin hairs should be longer than 2 inches.....whatever. But I know why. I don't want to do it. I don't want to be accountable. See, that's the other thing about me. Honesty is tough, but it is critical here. It's easier to say "tomorrow" than to admit I'm lazy, rebellious, unfocused...or whatever part of my character always rears it's ugly head and refuses to cooperate with the part of me that says TODAY ! It's always been stronger. But no more.

This blog is for me. But if you come here, read it once and find it worth reading again, then thank you so much. All encouragement is greatly needed and appreciated. But just like the statement "she's talking to hear her own voice" this blog is "written to hear my own heart ".

It won't be pretty all the time....though I'm going to post some pretty cool old pictures just as soon as I can scan them in. It will be be funny because I'm going to do "Not Me Monday" posts...love those....and you know me. There are dozens of Not Me's that I've done. It will be sad...because truthfully life sometimes just is. It will be truthful ..because without that, it's a waste of my time. And honestly, it will be hard. I know that much for sure.

I also know that He knows the plans He has for me...plans to prosper me.....to give me hope and a future.

So...to a better tomorrow.