Well, I'm on my weigh AGAIN :-) !
I just read through the few posts I had previously written.....almost a year has passed since I first started this. And here I am. Still waaaaay overweight. But NO MORE !
I am determined ( as fellow blogger Sean Anderson says ) that this is a plan set in concrete. It just has to be. It has to have higher priority than anything else in my life right now. Or I will not have a life. I told Rod ( my husband, in case anyone who doesn't know me ever reads this ) yesterday that I guess I could deal with some things. As old as I am ( 61 ), maybe just looking great is beyond me. Maybe wearing nice clothes is something I could get over ever being able to do again. Maybe even accepting that there are so many things I'll never do again...so many places I can't go...or fit into.

But what I cannot and WILL NOT accept is that I am not going to be able to walk in another year or two. I have to change my fate...for my children, my grandchildren, my husband ( he deserves better ) and especially, mainly for myself. I DESERVE BETTER. I DO. I DO. I DO !!!

I joined Weight Watchers online. I did this once before. I had pretty good success for 4 months.
I quit.
Why ? I don't know.
I'm pretty well convinced that I am afraid of success.
Why ? I don't know. But success is not what I'm concerned about right now. At least not that word specifically. I am concerned about living...and living well. I am asking my God to give me strength as I walk this path. It's a lonely path. Others who don't have the problem don't understand. But I know He does...and I don't have to be alone if I don't want to be. I've often chosen to be.
Why ? I don't know. But I am through going it alone. He assures me that I don't have to be...and I am choosing not to be anymore.
So tomorrow begins day 1 of counting points and changing my eating patterns for the rest of my life. I'm excited. I really am.

I want new choices. I want to choose to do things that my family and I can enjoy together.

To life and choices.....